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Sword-Bishop – His Personal Development

Every tiniest thought caused the most intense pain. Now and then I
would look at the facing wall thinking: „If I were to rush in there now
at great speed, would the headache be over then?“ All night long, I
could only sit on the edge of the bed, this happened for several
nights. But it was interesting that I was fit again the next day at
school. However, I could no longer shake my head or move it quickly
without severe pain, which is why I was excused from school sports.
This painful school taught me to become totally empty.»

And now began for him a nearly thirty-year toing and froing between
his heart and his nature. His heart said absolutely and out of deepest
love and yearning Yes, but his nature fought and resisted it through
fear of the suffering and renunciations shown him. The struggle
between the SAVIOUR and him had begun. And so the Sword-Bishop
says about it today:

«You see, in these thirty years I was being trained in suffering and in
abandonment. Toughened, however, I was in the battles on the part
of hell. I was still a little child when Satan tried in many ways to take my
life. Then as a young man he tried to make me turn away from GOD
with every means available to him. It was a DREADFUL time. I felt like
a roly-poly tumbler, who was worked on in turns by GOD and Satan.
With Satan I felt as if I had fallen, with GOD as if I were given fresh
heart again. This went on year after year! A mere game of chess
between GOD and Satan. Yet GOD be loved and thanked for it:
never has my heart turned away from Him.»

What did actually go on during these thirty years? One could write
books about it. His life was restless. Nowhere, absolutely nowhere did
he find rest. Without even properly realising it, he had already entered
the special school of the SAVIOUR.

Second Taking Away Before the Most Holy TRINITY

As a young man, the Sword-Bishop was caught up a second time
before the Most Holy TRINITY, so that he might also come to know the
enormous difference between GOD and man. Let him tell us about it
himself:

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